It's official. I made the decision this weekend. My tiara will have to wait another year. My first half-marathon will have to wait until another
day month season, it seems.
With the recent 'creeping crud' that hasn't yet gone away (still waiting on pneumonia confirmation or 'not'), with only 6 days to go 'til the Disney Princess Half, still coughing up my lungs on a daily basis, and still taking meds a few more days, I'm neither physically ready for next Sunday's race, nor professionally able to justify missing an entire week of work and then going out to run my heart (and lungs) out for 13.1 miles.
I finally cried today. Hubby patiently waited while I coughed on, cried on, and generally made a mess of his shirt while he listened to me lament over this lousy situation. Truth is: there will be plenty more races, I know. But the other truth is: after doing much searching today, I found that there are no other half marathons that:
a. Are far enough out past March 7th (a few weeks) to give me time to rest and train (again).
b. Are local enough to travel to without major expense (I'm on a teacher's salary....read: limited $$).
c. Don't happen to fall on a weekend when we already have family commitments.
Result: After training for six months and mentally preparing for this endeavor, it looks like I won't get to run my first half until the fall.
I am more disappointed
than I can even begin to express.
Hubby said to me today while I was wailing, "But you've already earned your 13.1 sticker. You've already run the full distance."
While I agree with him that I've demonstrated that I can 'do the distance,' I'm not yet 'official,' so I don't feel I can claim that prize: a silly sticker for my car. Isn't that the dumbest thing you've ever heard?? The coveted 13.1 sticker.
A huge thank you to everyone for your kind messages, comments, and e-mails... I'm working on getting better and will find a few other races to add to my calendar, since I currently have nothing scheduled. There's a 12K for Earth Day happening in April and a 4th of July Watermelon 5K, both local, and to fill a void they can't possibly fill. So, life goes on. I go back to work Monday. I continue to rest when I can. And I look forward to lacing up my running shoes again very soon.... hopefully in the next few days.
I see from the sidebar, that you guys ran some great races this weekend! YAY for you!!!! Keep running, rockin', and smiling.